i am a child of God

I grew up in a family of six children four girls ( i being the youngest girl ) and two boys. My mom was the one who brought us up.. single-parent, super hard working mommy! Bringing us up was a big deal and i honor my mother by doing her very best to raise us up alone!

By my mom's sheer determination and focus...all of us finished college and we are all doing our "own thing." One went to the "health" thing. The other went to the "corporate" thing, two went to the "family" business thing and the other two went to the "arts" thing...

I guess with the influence of my mommy, i felt that i need to be very sherwd with finances. Spending was hard for me but saving and earning money was easy.. I would get a job easy, find a bussiness, etc. Money is not the issue but the "love of money" was..

Growing up and watching my mother worked so hard made me afraid of not having enough..I wanted to become rich and famous so i won't have to work so hard..

Until recently as God has been changing my heart, I learned that material things or riches are so fleeting!! So easy to loose and it give false security.. One of my problems is not being able to spend my money and enjoy it.I had a revelation that riches is just a tool and everything here are His.. we a mere stewards of His gifts.. It made me more aware of spending and earning..

Three days ago a friend of mine asked help to look for high-end condos at the fort.. We went around to look at Serendra, One Mckinly and Boni Ridge.. They were really nice and I wanted to live in one. I felt that my eyes were open to see the possibilities of purchasing nice homes and seeing myself living in it.

I don't really know when but i do believe it will be soon. God is my Father now and He loves to give me a nice home!! If my mother worked so hard to build her home and to give us great education, food , lodging, travels, etc. What more God the Father who owns all things!!

I recently had a thought... or a prophetic word.. "I believe that God will reveal Himself as The Father to the filipinos!! The Philippines has become a fatherless nations .. Today is a new day for us!! God will Father us!"

Hey guys be ready for God's fathering

birthday party pictures

pictures from Marie Padre
there were more pictures but i am still getting the hang of this program.. stay tuned!
I am on my way to ABS-CBN for aimee's taping of closeuptofame2..I am excited!

aimee's portfolio

YESTERDAY i spent the afternoon with mari.. the webmaster for www.kitchienadal.net, barbiealmalbis.net, beliveartists.com and lanaj.net etc etc..
my adgenda was:
1.change look and feel of rocacruz.com
we were trying to fix my blog site to look more like me (this site at present kinda looks like my lola's site if ever she's still alive to have one.)
Mari is a great worker we finished the plans in 2 hours.. we will upload the site as soon as mari gets approved my blogspot as my team member.. so watch out!! this can be cool :)
2.make a portfolio for aimee..
mari and i searched the web to get info form modeling portfolios.. at present i totally have no idea in what i am about to embark (since my training is musicians).. i feel like a kid on top of a building on fire being told by the fire man to jump to thick smoke and darkness only to trust a voice shouting!! JUMP! nge enough of pastor joey's preaching..
Mari is a rock photographer! so trying to take photographs of models is new to her also..
as the afternoon progressed mari and i did some test shots around her street to give a visual peg if we can shoot around her area.. i became the "guinea manager slim pig" well budget is a constraint.. so we will make do with what we have.. doing it with dignity!!
i am posting the test shots!! i'l post aimee's shots too when we get a schedule to do it.. compare if we were true to the pegs..
went to others places after mari's house got home late but thats another story.. oh thanks mari!! your a great help!!

Be still and know God is God

I've been suffering from exploding ideas regarding the direction of the music industry in the philippines and how to break the mold of trying to sound like somebody else.

I did not want to be alone so ..I will think of having group brainstroms.. calling the recording companies,and artists... having my pastors and friends pray for me (that's the 1st thing) etc..etc.

But after experiencing intelectual paralysis God told me to be still and know that He is God!! so i just stayed home and prayed ... it takes allot of discipline to find rest in the LORD.

I have planted allot of ideas and its time to let it germinate and wait for results.
Lana J's album is in the works.. the last and best song is waiting to be finished (lana is a new song writer) she wrote 8songs already and waiting for inspiration for the last song (about her dad) until then its a wait and know God is in control time..

Back to being still.. and knowing God is God.. while waiting in my room (knowing God is God) my friend Lui Villarico called me to ask if i was busy and if i can manage her sister Aimee. Aimee is one of the finalist in close-up to fame 2. I thought about it for 5mins.. I know Aimee, she's very pretty and smart..hmmm.. so i said i was not busy (i was just waiting and knowing that God is God..)and told her i'l do it!!
Lets see what happens.. watch next saturday for the elimination round close up to fame 2 abs-cbn 3pm.

well being still can also be interpreted as just being normal.. meaning stop thinking about work!!!

so i invited kitchie to have beauty treaments in YSA salon pasig. its a way of relaxing and maintaining youthful skin. We talked about what God is saying to us and of course i told her about being still and knowing God is God while she said that God is telling her finish school, be excellent and God will take care of her future. We talked about great faith and being ourselves doing it..Doing what we enjoy and obeying God's leading is the most exciting place we can be in..

after that exciting time in the clinic.. i am back home knowing God, and He wants me to be still.

My passion is to influence people to be themselves and to live their purpose!
The King of kings and LORD of lords says "BE STILL roca and KNOW I WILL DO IT!!"

okay..okay.. :) Your the BOSS!! hehe

birthday gift

Ther best gift i recieved is a powerpoint presentation from my friends. They are actually half my age (i dont feel old when i am with them).. they are 17-26yr olds but they are worthy to look up to. I have been friends with them for more than a year now (some 4yrs) and it seems that we've been friends for a long time. I was a mentor to them (kinda..sort of a teacher) and i believe that soon they will surpass me... whatever i imparted to these men and women.. whatever seed i have planted.. it will grow and mature! The words of God will not return void but will accomplish its work in us.
i was so touched to see that my life was not in vain.. i may not have children yet but i feel a sense of fulfillment that day.. thank you guys!! God is pleased with Faith!!
well done my faithfull servant.. to 40 more years of God's grace amen..

getting wiser

My birthday is on sunday and its the 1st time in many many years that i am not suffering from birthday blues. Turning 40 should be sad to most of us women.. wrinkles, slow metabolism,etc,ect.. When i was 15 yrs old i told many of my friends that I wanted to die at age 40. Wierd... now i feel that there is more to look forward to at age 40 and above... Yes! being wiser and gracefully getting older. I see myself more beautiful now than ever.
No more deepression i am living my life day by day. in faith and in truth! amen! till next year ...

sad day

Sad Day
Today is one of the saddest days in a long time. It’s not the saddest day of life but I believe its part of my top 50 saddest days in my life…
It is sad because I feel that being a manager can be very unstable. My job is to champion the artist but who will champion me?
I cannot put my trust in an artist I must put my trust only in God.
God comforted me in Psalms 25. The whole chapter gave me hope and made me feel that God is with me. Here is part of it:
To you, O LORD I lift up my soul;
In you I trust, O my God.
Don’t let me be put to shame
Nor let my enemies triumph over me
NO ONE WHOSE HOPE IS IN YOU
WILL EVER BE PUT TO SHAME
But THEY will be put to shame
To all of you reading this, may you get your comfort from the God who gives comfort. This day has become my comfort day!!