Desperate prayer for meaning

my need for meaning in my life...

I desperately long for God to look at me and say, “Your life touched people, and pointed them in my direction. Thanks for music, lyrics and concerts that did this.”.. May we become people who allow the aroma of Jesus to leap off us in our engagement of the people He died to redeem.

villans like us

In the media industry , esp. as an artist manager I've become a villain to a few people. I dont know maybe allot :)

I stumbled into reading this article and this kinda encouraged me..

Happiness is letting someone make you the villain.

• When I was making my record, I hired a bassist. But listening back to his tracks afterwards, I decided to play bass myself instead. I’m glad I did, and love the results. But I hear he still hates me, 13 years later.
• A writer in LA loved CD Baby, and kept insisting I hire him as a consultant, clearly wanting the association. After his many requests and my many refusals, he threatened to tell everyone CD Baby was a scam unless I hired him. I didn’t pay, so he’s been slamming me publicly for years now.
• Some ex-girlfriends and ex-colleagues hate me. Some people I’ve never met write pages on their blog about how much they hate me.

Funny thing is : I’m happy to be the villain they need.

Some people can only feel right by making someone else wrong.

I know I’m doing good helpful work. I’m so filled with love that nothing gets me down. So I guess if anyone should be the villain, it should be me!

It doesn’t bother me, and noticing it doesn’t bother me reminds me how happy I really am.

So, bring it on, anyone. Project your frustrations on to me. I’m happy to be that for whoever needs it.

http://sivers.org/villain

well, I'm not really happy when i get to be a villian but I can turn the other cheek and walk away.

Happy New Year

There are many doom and gloom predictions for 2009 and can make most people lose hope. Seeing the future with the eyes of circumstance based on past and present events can make us all believe that they are true..

Allow me to share interconnected stories in the Bible that encouraged me to see 2009 with the eyes of faith, faith in God through Jesus by the power of the Holy Spirit.
The first story is of Abraham, when he was commanded by God to leave Ur and go to Canaan... he left with great provision.

Gen 12:1The Lord had said to Abram, “Leave your native country, your relatives, and your father’s family, and go to the land that I will show you. 2 I will make you into a great nation. I will bless you and make you famous, and you will be a blessing to others. 3 I will bless those who bless you and curse those who treat you with contempt. All the families on earth will be blessed through you.”as this great narrative continues, Abraham obeyed and God indeed blessed him.

The next is the story of Issac when there was a great famine in the land..

Genesis 26 1 A severe famine now struck the land, as had happened before in Abraham’s time. So Isaac moved to Gerar, where Abimelech, king of the Philistines, lived. 2 The Lord appeared to Isaac and said, “Do not go down to Egypt, but do as I tell you. 3 Live here as a foreigner in this land, and I will be with you and bless you. I hereby confirm that I will give all these lands to you and your descendants,[a] just as I solemnly promised Abraham, your father. 4 I will cause your descendants to become as numerous as the stars of the sky, and I will give them all these lands. And through your descendants all the nations of the earth will be blessed. 5 I will do this because Abraham listened to me and obeyed all my requirements, commands, decrees, and instructions.” 6 So Isaac stayed in Gerar.In the rest of the story, we read that God blessed Isaac who became prosperous in the midst of famine..

The third story is that of Jacob when he was fleeing from Laban..

Genesis 31 1 But Jacob soon learned that Laban’s sons were grumbling about him. “Jacob has robbed our father of everything!” they said. “He has gained all his wealth at our father’s expense.” 2 And Jacob began to notice a change in Laban’s attitude toward him. 3 Then the Lord said to Jacob, “Return to the land of your father and grandfather and to your relatives there, and I will be with you.”... Jacob obeyed and his life was very colorful but God was faithful to His word and accomplished it according to His promise.

My thoughts about thiese narratives:
1. We need to hear from God ... the common thread in these narratives is "God said..."
2. Don’t assume God's plan.. having a good plan does not mean it is what "God said." Many fall by twisting God's arm and asking Him to do what we want, or ask Him to bless what we will do even if He did not ask us to do this. Many delude themselves into thinking that they are doing God’s will when all they did is praying before doing their own will regardless of what God’s thoughts or feelings are about the matter.

I encourage everyone to face this year with the truth of God’s Word.

The bibles says, there will be suffering, not just for 2009, but in the years to come.. a promise with a BUT
Romans 5:3-5
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

Trials develop CHARACTER.

Romans 15:1313 I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Trials builds HOPE in GOD ALMIGHTY

I want to end this with this Psalm 27
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation— so why should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress, protecting me from danger, so why should I tremble?

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!